Crumbling

I thought i had everything under control. Now i see that i was just ignoring what could go wrong.
I thought i could do it, show everybody that i can live alone and NOT make mistakes. But seems like i was totally wrong.

Now i have to try and fix it all in a matter of days, time is running out. Plus, my boyfriend's birthday is on Wednesday. I had to tell him that i couldn't meet him until then, although we had plans. I think he's doubting his decision from a year ago, to not break up with me. At least that's what it sounds like on the phone. . .

I'm in serious trouble now