Done

I did it!

Before and After ^-^ Now this symbol will accompany me for the rest of my life and always remind me that i have the strength to fight on and live my life the way I want. And besides, i really like it, its a nice body decoration XD
I'm too lazy to write more than this today ^^° So have a good night and wonderful dreams ^.^

If you're happy...

The last few days were quite great ^-^
I'm no longer in the mood of stuffing myself with sweets, i am doing my chores and going to appointments, i even think i'm not that unsightly! I like the length of my hair (its getting longer, finally!) i dont dislike my face and my body could be worse *g* I sleep more regulated (yuhu) and my room is more tidy than usual...aaaaaand *drum roll* i just fixed the date for my second tattoo!!!! Yucheee yuheissasa hjleraerhldk XD

It will be this little shadowhunter rune (from The Mortal Instruments) and i'll get it on my wrist *yeah* And the icing on the cake is that i'll go shopping tonight with two wonderful and cunning girls. Sometimes life can be good to me *sigh* =^-^=

Mucc needed

Long ago, my friend recommended Mucc to me. Thanks to her i too had a music to help me in sad and very troubled moments. When i'm desperate or just down their music helps me a lot. Dont know why

Today was the first day after so much time that i needed these guys to comfort me. I am going my way in life. I know i cant go very fast and most of the time now i spent waiting. But hey, at least something, right? Still, since my family (aware or unaware) always reminds me to consider THEIR feelings about THEIR bad situation (=having to deal with me) i sometimes get the feeling i'm drowning. Yes, i try to understand them, and they sure have a lot of trouble thanks to me. But whats with me?! The Girl that is living under these circumstances?? Can't i too expect some comprehension and patience? I try to appear as stable and normal as possible, but dont they know that inside i'm crying and screaming for help? Dont they know that i am desperate because i cannot be ME, i cannot do the things i want to, i cant be independent?!! And then in all seriousness they expect me to comfort them when they are troubled because they dont understand me??? Sure......
Well, sometimes in a while its good to cry your heart out. Someday it will get better. And maybe someday even my mum recognizes that this situation is bad, EVEN FOR ME -.-
At least i hope so