Pissed

Tonight my favourite soccer team lost.....It was a looong game, very thrilling but the referee seemed to be a) blind or b) not very objective *grrrrr* And i can't stand the winner's team, FC Bayern München. I know i shouldn't be immature and that they just did their job, but still. I can't stand them!! Especially when they beat my beloved Real Madrid ....

Besides that something else made me loose the (very!) good mood i had today. How can some people NOT understand that when you ask them for comfort, you don't want to hear that life is just that bitchy and that you should cope with it. No thank you! If i especially ask for comfort, i DON'T want to hear the reason that made me sad. The argument "But hey, i don't want to lie. Life really is that stupid" is invalid.

I'm not stupid, i already know that -.- Bäh, i'm just pissed right now. It was such a good day and it ended horribly.
It was sunny, the wind was fun (it was strong *g* and nearly blew me away XD), i found a manga i was searching for (Adekan Vol. 4),

could delete some things from my To-Do-List and met two good friends *kisses* In Short, one of the rare days where everything just goes well. Till tonight -.-
*sigh* I hope i won't meet people who liked Bayern München winning tomorrow, the mood i'm in wouldn't be good for their health...

I think it's time for me to go to bed and forget this defeat. Wish you all a good night ^-^

"I'm not a psychopath, I'm a high-functioning sociopath"

I am a very enthusiastic Person so if i like something, i like it very ... let's say 'intense' ^-^
Now i found a new TV series that thrills me. Ladies and Gentleman, I present to you

Since i read the Tweets of one of my favourite Authors, who admires, ADORES this series, i already knew for a long time that there was a BBC series about Sherlock Holmes. But it took a coincidence to make me watch it. Thank God! XD

The Story in short: Sherlock Holmes and Arthur Conan Doyle never existed, the series begins in today's London. Military Doctor John Watson just returned from war and is looking for a place to live. A friend introduces him to Sherlock Holmes and together they rent a room in Mrs. Hudsons house. Sherlock, the extraordinary yet very arrogant "consultant detective" and John, the calm, bit sarcastic and down to earth Doctor, completely Sherlocks antipole. Together they investigate cases and experience all kind of situations, meet quirky *g* people etc, eeetc.

This unique mix captured my interest from the beginning. I love Sherlocks Behaviour, how he sometimes insults without noticing, just because he's so DAMN intelligent-genial XD

And all the while Watson is by his side, observing and commenting ^-^

Kind of spoiler, but everyone who knows the books/films should know her: Besides Sherlock of course, my favourite character is Irene Adler.

Lara Pulver portrays her as a cool, intelligent and beautiful femme fatale. She really is on a par with Sherlock :D To tell more would be a real spoiler, so i have to stop now.

Do yourself a favour and watch this series! ! ! 

Gap

Since i was ~14 years old, i knew him. He was a good friend for my mother and a great help in official things, since she didnt know how to defend herself very good at that time. One big part why i respected him so much was that he was by my mum's side in the worst moment of her life. I was a little kid, i couldnt do much, so i felt relieved when i saw her smile again.
One Saturday morning he came to eat breakfast with us. He even brought some special little fancy cakes :D That's how the tradition started. Since then he always came with these sweets and did eat with us while telling us unfunny jokes only he could laugh about. But it was funny to watch him *g* He was like the spirit of a young tomboy in the body of an adult man.
There were many times when my mum and him argued hard. After that always came the periods where they avoided each other during weeks, even months. But still, we all knew for sure that if something had happened, he would have helped us. Everytime my mum went on vacation and my brother and i were alone at home, my mum and him, both told us to ask him if something seems wrong. He helped my brother when he had to go to court (a boy beat him up and he lost part of his teeth -.-). Since he was well-known and had good contacts, he could always tell us a way to solve problems (financial and juridical ones,concerning health etc). He helped me coooountless times when i had to argue with my father about the damn money. I was so happy that he got angry, everytime he heard how our father treated my brother and me. He REALLY cared about us and liked us! I feel helpless without him because he was my *g* knight in shining armour concerning suing my dad.
I think i should have tried to get to know him better. He was scorpion (zodiac) like me. We always joked about him being my real father, because we had the same eye colour.
I didn't know him as good as my mother did, but still enough to miss him. Everytime someone mentions 'lawyer'. Or 'gun'. Or 'suicide'.
Rest in peace, wherever you are

Countless undiscovered doors

Yesterday i was chatting with a friend, when he asked me a question, one that startled me a bit. "How do u think your life will be after you get 'well' again?" Sounds quite normal and easy. But thinking it really through....some friends will treat me differently, my mum'll treat me less kind and protect me less, some people will like me more because i'm ok again etc, etc. In short, my life WILL change and there won't be only good ones. I realized that this frightened me and maybe that's one of the reasons i have such difficulties in trying to change.
BUT, besides all these new questions i realized another important thing. There was a new way of looking at things in my brain (figuratively speaking). It seemed like there suddenly *puff* appeared a new door to a different way of living and seeing life. And i thought, maybe there are even more of these doors? Maybe the times i feel really depressed because i dont see a way to get through the troubles, i just didnt look hard enough? Knowing that there might be countless other possibilites to master the hardships of life gives me hope and courage ^-^ Even in times i'm stuck in complete darkness, it's good to know that there is light, altough i might not be able to see it.
Just wanted to share this with you, might help you too a bit :D